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Post by Fire God on Feb 12, 2004 17:30:38 GMT -5
Well, its been quite some time since I've seen you all. Good to see you're all good and well.
I was just on my way to send a rather obscene email to a teacher of mine when I realized that, "Whats this? An email from Kacey?"
So I read the email, it got my mind off the b*tch of a teacher. (Which will most likely end up to be a good thing.)
Well, I haven't talked to a good portion of you for a long time. And, being the liar that I am. A goodbye from me never ends up as a goodbye.
So here I am, again, and again, and again. And, to be perfectly honest with all of you. I'm tired of running from you people!
Sure I could get away from you all. (I actually managed to do it until I checked my old email account. But that was my own doing.)
And, I've actually begun to feel sorry for a few people that I left. I assume a few are doing fine. But another, I can't be sure of.
Over the past few months, I've gotten to be an obscene, rude, arrogant person who doesn't give a damn what other people are fond of. (Hence all the language.)
So I came to see how things were doing, they're actually going better than I thought they'd be. So, I suppose I may just stop by every now and then. As a distant friend who wants every one of you to shut the hell up and stay away from me.
Is this acceptable? I may be back in a few weeks, or a month. Or somethin' like that. To check up on things. You know what I mean.
Sure I've got a whole 'nother batch of friends to hang out with. (Though most of them are like 30+)
But I could always spare a bit of my time to come here. And talk. (Though I hope you people won't mind a bit of swearing here and there. I'm not as gentleman like as I used to be.)
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Post by SQUEAKY PiKaMeW on Feb 12, 2004 17:35:11 GMT -5
^_^ of course it's alright!Of course!Of course!of course! You don't have to worry about a bit of language, heck, it's nothing I don't hear every day.  I appreciate this, more than u cud know, ah my old good friend.^_^I'm so glad to see you, I was really, well quite surprised to see this when I did........ SO surprised.....and happy... ^_^() |
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Post by The Last One on Feb 12, 2004 17:36:00 GMT -5
Dude you've grown weary do you know there is something called caring up and leave, Leaving mates and The kindest girl i've met and you threw it all these are the quiet things that no one ever knows but SO WHAT ban me hate me but you make me feel higher than dirt you Jerk i wish you just could have seen the stuff this forum has been through we help each other we make up and you could have been here to see it bloom who cares who you are i look at this screen and i just want to send emo bullets to your heart of the pain you have caused and i HOPE your happy your post was long and bored i have heard no apology don't grow up what your 14-15 so what i'm 13 and thanks to growing up i have lost my life your weary no...............
YOUR A JERK!
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Post by Fire God on Feb 12, 2004 17:41:09 GMT -5
Glad to see I get the same warm welcome from this place. (Hope you all noticed a hint of sarcasm.)
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Post by SQUEAKY PiKaMeW on Feb 12, 2004 17:41:27 GMT -5
matt calm yourself, theres a lot more to it then what u know,
Frankly, it doesnt matter, about appoliogies, he was nice enough to come at all after all.....
I know ur mad, but its alright....shh.....its alright
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Post by The Last One on Feb 12, 2004 17:46:27 GMT -5
Sorry ok......... HEY WAIT he can swear and i get bashed for it well ok fine  ANYWAY........... I am happy your back i'll calm just had a rough time |
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Post by Fire God on Feb 12, 2004 17:47:03 GMT -5
Its alright Kacey. I'll handle myself just fine.
Matt, (It is matt right?)
Well, you're angry. And I guess you should be. After all, what am I but some jerk?
You know what? I am a jerk. I'm a liar. A thief. An meanie head. A "bad guy". I'm just a jerk all around. You're right.
I had no right to come here. It was a mean thing to do. Getting someone's hopes up like that. After all I'll only be here some of the time. Every now and then.
After what I did to her, I don't deserve to be here right now. I may as well just drop over dead.
So why don't I?
Because I don't feel like dropping over dead. I don't feel like coming back full time. I don't feel like doing things I don't feel like doing.
But you know something I'm really really good at? I'm really good. At shutting people up. Getting even with people.
(I'd watch what you say.)
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Post by The Last One on Feb 12, 2004 17:53:05 GMT -5
F*** THIS I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF PEOPLE WHO DON'T WANNA ACCEPT ANYTHING NO SORRYS FROM ME ACCEPTED YOU LIKE EVERYONE ELSE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE HUH HAPPY YOU HAPPY NOW I JUST WANTED TO SAY SORRY AND YOU THROW IT BACK LIKE I JUST SPAT ON YOU, YOU I WON'T WATCH WHAT I SAY BOO HOO BAN ME I WILL BE ALIVE AND REMBER THIS YOU CAN CHANGE A LOOK YOU CAN CHANGE INTELLIGENCE BUT SOME PEOPLE JUST NEVER CHANGE ON THE INSIDE WELL BOO HOO GO BLAM ME I KNOW THIS WILL TURN INTO AN ARGUMENT SO I WILL LOCK IT FOR SAFTEY SORRY PIKAMEW I TRIED BUT OOOOOOOOOOOOPPPPPPPPPPPSSSSSSSSSSS I TRIED TO HARD! THANK YOU THANK YOU FOR BEING THE SAME I NEEDED TO SEE SOMEONE ANNOYINGLY SMART MOUTHED YET EXTREMELY! INTELLIGENT THANK YOU
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Post by SQUEAKY PiKaMeW on Feb 12, 2004 17:59:35 GMT -5
*unlocks* no need to lock it, just calm down matt.Its ok, everythings alright.Just, be calm ok? (sorry fire god, i know u said to let you handle it but calming words will work a bit better)
Just, relax matt, look at me, im ok!I mean i just ran around a circle in my room screaming "I HAVE TWO FEET!" I was so happy(ok thats an exageration, i ran around in a square not a circle)
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Post by Fire God on Feb 12, 2004 18:01:40 GMT -5
I'm over here laughin' my ass off.
We were sendin' eachother pms and such. And then he read this before he read my pm apologizing for it. And I was going to modify it but he had already seen it. Oh man things couldn't have gone in a worse order.
Sorry for that stuff Matt. I won't do anything to you unless you really piss me off, and thats problably not going to happen. Check your pms to read my apology for that.
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Post by SQUEAKY PiKaMeW on Feb 12, 2004 18:05:30 GMT -5
Speaking of laughing peoples butt's off.^_^()Im in a frenzy over here, myself.(Is that ode to joy stuck in my head?)
I've got a cheesey happy feeling so dont be surprised if i go "barney" on someone.^_^() -_-()
Well im sure everything will smooth over, but yeah its funny how stuff like that seems to happen.^_^() wrong time wrong thing and oh.......^_^()I think someone caught my disaese.O.o()
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Post by craziness on Feb 12, 2004 20:00:59 GMT -5
Alright, I deleted my last post 'cause that was just awful of me....
Welcome back. Can't say I'm glad to see you here, but whatever. Come if you want. Go if you want. No one's in control of you. But let me tell you, all this time I knew eventually that you'd come back. Every moment I thought of how disgusted I was, I knew you'd come. Your welcomed by these many, but not by me.
Do what you want, just keep your distance from me.
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Post by SQUEAKY PiKaMeW on Feb 12, 2004 20:12:45 GMT -5
*sigh* Steph, I realize you're mad, heck everyone seems to be mad so far except me. But think for a second, do you REALLY think it was easy for him either?To just go and stuff, letting people hurt? I know at least, that at first it had to have been so hard for him. Even though after a while it seems he stopped caring he must not exactly be feelingless to come back again.He didnt have to come back at all.But, but he did and....... I've never been happier in months. I thought about what u said, about dignity and such, heh, dignity, whats that?I have enough dignity that i wont change who i am to please someone else but, dignity has nothing to do with being forgiving.I forgave him long before all this. It doesnt matter whats happened, those things dont ring in my mind, not like the HAPPY things.It's all here in my head, every moment I miss, everything.I have not forgotten what it was like.How happy I was.Heck if I never met him I wudnt be here right now(in more ways then one) Why shudnt I welcome him back with open arms?To do otherwise wud be living a lie, and I dont lie to anyone, but my parents. If anyone shud be angry, it shud be me, but i never was angry.So why shud i start now? But changed?You think he's changed?How do you know you're just not, seeing another side?I know I've got many sides to myself, and most people will get to see them all.But thats because I'm and open book, gotta be who I am no matter what the cost.It doesnt matter to me, that we may not be talking to the EXACT same person we used to talk to.I'm not exactly the same either.I've changed, though i cant say if it was good or bad I did change too.But even so, this change, it's not really a change......Sometimes, u just know people better then u thought u did.i still like him.(of course i do!!!^_^() ) And as long as he still wants me, as some kinda friend i still wanna be his friend.I still wanna know him.Heck, itdll be fun to get to know this "new" person.So far, so good.^_^() |
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Post by Reginald on Feb 12, 2004 20:23:02 GMT -5
Well, its been quite some time since I've seen you all. Good to see you're all good and well. I was just on my way to send a rather obscene email to a teacher of mine when I realized that, "Whats this? An email from Kacey?" So I read the email, it got my mind off the b*tch of a teacher. (Which will most likely end up to be a good thing.) Well, I haven't talked to a good portion of you for a long time. And, being the liar that I am. A goodbye from me never ends up as a goodbye. So here I am, again, and again, and again. And, to be perfectly honest with all of you. I'm tired of running from you people! Sure I could get away from you all. (I actually managed to do it until I checked my old email account. But that was my own doing.) And, I've actually begun to feel sorry for a few people that I left. I assume a few are doing fine. But another, I can't be sure of. Over the past few months, I've gotten to be an obscene, rude, arrogant person who doesn't give a darn what other people are fond of. (Hence all the language.) So I came to see how things were doing, they're actually going better than I thought they'd be. So, I suppose I may just stop by every now and then. As a distant friend who wants every one of you to shut the hell up and stay away from me. Is this acceptable? I may be back in a few weeks, or a month. Or somethin' like that. To check up on things. You know what I mean. Sure I've got a whole 'nother batch of friends to hang out with. (Though most of them are like 30+) But I could always spare a bit of my time to come here. And talk. (Though I hope you people won't mind a bit of swearing here and there. I'm not as gentleman like as I used to be.)I realy dont give a fuc*... The swearing things no problem if you ask me... And good to know you will be here a bit more, FG. |
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Post by SQUEAKY PiKaMeW on Feb 12, 2004 20:30:18 GMT -5
I realy dont give a fuc*... The swearing things no problem if you ask me... And good to know you will be here a bit more, FG. Such language*laughing* Im just kidding!^_^() they are but words, words i dont say, yes, but they are words all the same, that dont mean anything at all.......just kinda a way to let anger and such out. What can u do? But im glad to see theres someone else other then me happy about this arrangement.^_^() heh |
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